Falling short....

Falling short… those two words seem to emulate the type of lifestyle that I’ve been living for 17 years of my life. Falling short, it is exactly what it sounds like; expectations and goals are set high but you come up a little shy of that ideal dream, of that dream you have pursued your whole life. It’s a very grim feeling. Grim… that’s not even an adequate word for falling short. It is something more than grim, there are no words to describe that feeling. Disappointment; nope that doesn’t cut it. You’ve worked so hard to get where you are, yet you fall a little shy. In life, this HAS to be the worse feeling in the world. Falling short means that you are not over the hump until that goal is finally reached, until you finally can say, “Yes I’ve done it!” Yet, how can you reach that goal when you fall short all the time. The sense of satisfaction, happiness is not achieved until that day comes where you realize how far you’ve come. No matter how hard you try, no matter how much time and effort is invested, when you fall short, it’s a very discerning feeling to know that all that work was for NOTHING. Absolutely NOTHING! You have nothing to show for what you’ve done your whole life.
The cliché words such as, “Hey, don’t worry about. You’ll get over this as time passes,” or the “Just try your best. Don’t give up.” These words are very true and the sheer disappointment does seem to vanish after time passes. Yet, for the time being, you still feel the same way; truly disappointed at yourself. I mean, it is better for people to make a conscientious effort to comfort you, yet you know that those words are meaningless and don’t change the way you think. You realize that you cannot give up and you must stay determined at all times, but yet, after a certain point, after countless disappointments, you ask yourself, “What’s the point anymore?” There comes a point in your life when you ask, why do I put up with this anymore? Quitting is always an appealing option and would be the easy way out. After a certain point, the effort you put in trying to reach that certain goal all the time drains all your energy. After a certain point, you realize that this is a feat that you cannot overcome. Trying to vanquish the memories of the pain and sorrow experienced through the sufferings of disappointment is not an easy task. Falling short has to be the hardest thing to overcome, for you cannot easily push it out of your head until later. The uneasiness that comes along with falling short does not make it any easier. The continuous thought of not being good enough sticks in the back of your mind.
However, in the midst of all this disappointment, I have learned from a certain someone that you must never beat yourself over something so materialistic and of the world. Although you fall short, you can never let that get the best of you. Overcoming adversity is something EVERYONE in this world goes through and what doesn’t break you only makes you stronger. We must always make best of the situation presented to us. We can’t feel sorry for ourselves everyday and although life may seem unfair at times, we must learn to enjoy every single minute of it. Setting expectations high to only feel more disappointment; yes it’s not a very appealing thought, but we cannot settle for any less. Getting over that hump will only feel that much better after having failed after so many tries. Falling short, just another obstacle that life presents us with, just another thing we must be able to fight through.